A sad start to summer

as my best friend leaves to start new in California, I realize that I didn't spend as much time with her as I could have over the past several months. It sucks but I was really busy with school and work. I feel like these past two years that I have been in school were supposed to be the best but instead they were the worst. I don't remember much except naps, food, crying, being at school/work constantly. I know this year was really hard for me but I regret not making it an even bigger challenge by being more engaged in other activities. If I was, maybe I would have been less focused on the stress in my life at that time. Then again, you can't go around thinking about the if's and but's in life. Hahaha butts.